I spoke too soon...

With temperatures reaching to the mid 60's I was pouting & grumpy... now in the 20's, I'm curled up in a blanket & my toes just won't stay warm. This is when I hate our cold hardwood floors that creak beneath my frozen nubs I once called toes... okay, a little over-dramatic, but sometimes you need to fancy up your ordinary life.

The last few weeks have been brutal in the mommy department. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE my children & couldn't imagine life without them- okay, yes I can imagine life when they are grown up & just visitors in my adult paradise ;) But this whole raising them every single second of every single day is getting hard on me. No one tells you what you really sign up for when you see that cute little peanut on the sonogram screen!!

Hunter, surprisingly, hasn't been the "hard" one. I used to think he was high maintenance... no... Avery is a diva already!!! She has an attitude problem, anger issues & is sassy- and she hasn't even been 1 for a whole month yet! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?

But it all seriousness, she is going through a phase (waking up in the middle of the night, clinging to me, throwing tantrums) that I hope ends soon. As I remember correctly, Hunter didn't start the terrible 2's until he was in fact 2.... so what happened with Avery? Where did I go wrong? My mom swears up & down I wasn't a hard child, but also adds that my sister, the 2nd child was. So, is it 2nd child syndrome? Does it get better with the 3rd?

Anyways, the New Year is finally here... I hate the whole "What's your New Year's Resolution??" I don't know!!!??? I am doing good just getting through each day with these little toots, let alone trying to decide what I should be doing for the rest of the year.

But I can try my hardest everyday to be the best mom I can be... I know, I know, I should do this anyways, but sometimes it is hard work. Too hard. When I make it a promise, I make myself try harder. For example, the "phase" Avery is going through- I can pray harder to have patience & understanding for my little baby girl. Yes, she is fine, no, crying won't hurt her!

I can try harder at being a good wife. To show my gratitude for my husband working hard for his family. To cook new things that the whole family can enjoy!

To me, 2011 is going to be a year full of new beginnings, new achievements, security, and above all gratitude!! Learning that even when the times are rough, I should be grateful for what God has given me & my family.

Hope everyone had a wonderful New Year's!